Wednesday, June 10, 2009

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

I'm back! Long time no blog, I know. Let me explain...No, is too much I sum up.

The Good -- we have a new baby in the family! Meet ConMan, my evil twin's grandson. Born March 11.

The Bad -- The little guy was born with severe Spina Bifuda, which required surgery within hours of his birth, and is further complicated by hydrocephalus which has required two brain surgeries so far to relieve the pressure on his brain. On a positive note he has had a much better outcome than expected, he has some movement in his legs and the hydrocephalus didn't develop until after birth so we're optimistic that there will be minimum if any brain damage as a result. Little guy has had some swelling and scarring from the brain surgeries though, so I had to make him a hat. I'm hoping to make him several more. (It's good to be related to a knitter!)

The Ugly -- And this is the main reason I haven't been blogging. My father is dying. It's not tragic, he's 87 (almost 88). But it's sad. And hard and painful (physically) for him and (emotionally) for me. It's been a slow drawn out process, none of which is pretty or uplifting. I'm not really sure how much of it I want to share, and it's a lot of what's going on with me right now. I even gave up knitting altogether for two weeks. But it's come back with a vengeance this week and I'm working on a sweater for ME! (More on that later). I'm trying to find and/or restore some small pleasures in my life and knitting and writing are part of that. So I'm going to try to blog some about my knitting and maybe about finding some good in an otherwise bad time. Because I can't find it if I don't look for it, right?


Heather said...

Well, right there is the full circle. The miracle of birth and growth and the optomism of a life full of love and compassion. Be grateful that you have this time with your dad and Con-man (love that).
Hugs to you.

Tolentreasures said...

What a beautiful little boy! He is adorable. Can't wait to see the sweater. Cherish the time with your dad.


Patricia said...

Thinking of you and hoping the knit brings some comfort. Nice baby hat by the way!!

Jean said...

It's good to have you back. I hope you'll stick with us. I would say without hesitation that that little guy isn't brain damaged -- he's obviously alert and responsive, and that's where it shows, at that age.

DPUTiger said...

Sorry I've been so AWOL. Hope you are doing well and know my thoughts are with you. Hang in there!